April 27, 2011

Sorry it's been a little while but...

We got the results back from the biopsy and my mother has lung cancer. We go today to Roswell Park Cancer Institute this morning to meet with her team of doctors and find out what treatments they have planned for her. Roswell is supposed to be the best- and I am glad that the doctors have referred her there.  My brother and I are taking it pretty hard and I know that she is scared but is pretending to be strong.  Her strategy is to ignore it until she has to face it and honestly, if I were in her shoes I would not  be able to do that.  I am a dweller.  With the house move, her new diagnosis, and Keith's father having a heart attack last week I have had about all I can take for now. I am trying to give my girls the attention that they need but it is really hard.  I have told my oldest that Grandma has cancer but my 10 year old would take it VERY hard- so I have told her that Grandma is sick but have not given her any details.
Sorry to have put this out there for you all but- I needed to get it all out and my best friend is my mother and I do not want to let her know how scared I am.  I am supposed to be the strong one who is taking care of everything. :)

We are leaving in a little bit.  Please wish us luck.





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8 comments:

  1. Will be keeping your mom in my thoughts and prayers. That saying that God never gives you more than you can handle is truly being tested for you right now and I am so very sorry for that. Don't apologize for putting this out here for us. Sometimes just being able to share and get the words out helps. Take care and please keep us posted. {{{HUGS}}}

    Melissa
    www.disneydreamerdesigns.blogspot.com

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  2. Hi Annette; I'm so sorry about your mother's disease. I truly know how you feel. My mother had the same thing. We go thru so many ups and downs with emotions changing often (sometimes every minute)...it is exhausting. Find a place that brings you solitude and visit it everyday for a short time...even if it is in meditation, prayer, crafting....also try to find laughter every day. I pray for you all now. Hugs........

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  3. My heart goes out to you and your family.My prayers are with you all.

    Kathy

    myscrappycupcake.blogspot.com

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  4. Annette - my heart goes out to you and your family. My dad was diagnosed last year, January 19, 2010 with Esophageal Cancer and we were devestated. Please know you and your family are in my prayers - Enjoy the time God is giving you and remember from one daughter to another, God never gives you more than you can handle (sometimes he just gives you more credit than you think you deserve). Happy to chat if you ever need to.
    Hugs to you! ~Min

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  5. My prayers are with you in this trying time. By God's will, your mother will be well!!!
    God Bless!!

    Jenn

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  6. Annette, I will be sure to pray for your mom. On January 20, my mom was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Everything happened so quickly and 2 weeks later she had her mastectomy. I had no interest in anything, I felt like my world had come crashing down and was unsure about even wanting to wake up in the morning. To be honest, I didn't even have interest in life anymore...since my mom IS my life. And I couldn't imagine a life without her. She's been doing well ever since. I just want you to know that I am here for you if you need me, there are people praying for your mom and for you (so that you may be strong enough for this journey). Know that it is okay to cry. Eventually, I turned to crafting as I finally realized it was a tool to help me cope by creating thank you cards for my mom and memory books, her favorite recipes...etc. Sending you lots of love and prayers,
    Nadia

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  7. I am so sorry you and your family are going through all of this. You will all be in my thoughts and prayers.

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